School sucks!

NUS sucks, seriously. Next year CNY is on 14 Feb (Sunday) so holiday’ll be rolled over until TUesday for the week. And then they put Recess week into that week so they can eat up our holiday. And the week after that there’ll be mid-term tests! Oh how wonderful~! I hope the modules I take next semester will not have any midterms though because I want to go to Whistler to watch Winter Olympics!! Sighhhh let’s see how things go.

Even now, school sucks! :(:( deadlines after deadlines, meetings after meetings, tests after tests. 😦 I shan’t say more and stress myself. I’m stressed enough already. Never worked so hard before in all my semesters. I studied and stayed up so late (or early – 6am) the past few days until my back broke. It broke cos I can no longer sit on a chair without aching… And my neck starts to crack too.. Everyone around me is cracking parts of their bodies! So scary!! I can only hope I do well. I would say, I think I tried my best… I want to go exchange and fly away, to a place where I can be myself and enjoy myself.

Next year everyone will be gone… 😦 It’s okay, I shall stayyyyyy… Or maybe not? 🙂 Let’s call the Dean, daddy! 🙂 🙂

In addition,

I think parents are like pencils to a child’s blank piece of paper.

Sharp pencils create holes in the paper, colored ones have the ability to paint a beautiful picture; while some pencils simply don’t leave a mark on the paper and the paper is now available for any other crayons to make things out of it…

Family Values

Recently, I’ve really been pondering over the importance of family values. the teachings taught from young, the way you are brought up, the things they tell you, the things you see, all makes a difference. And of course, the amount of time you spend together, but not only that, the quality is important as well.

I’ve seen so many families which are not very gelled together, I won’t even say dysfunctional. Your family is the only one there for you when all else fails, they are the ones that stick by no matter what happens and they are the ones that form your thinking and mindset. I was rather sad yesterday when I see a mother and the son ‘bargaining’ a deal – if he listens to her, she’ll reward him. I was also very sad whenever I see a parent being absurdly biased towards or against one child, just because he’s the oldest or youngest. I always think parenthood is an art, one thing you can never learn by the books. But yet it’s so important. And the worst thing about this is that it has a spiral effect down the generations, where the way you teach your kids is the way they are going to teach their kids.

I thank God for wonderful and mature parents, who were always fair whenever Jac and I fight when we were young. They were never biased but taught us both to be humble and say “sorry” even if we think it’s not our fault. I thank God for parents who are loving and sacrifice for my family. I know parents are also humans and they need friends, but when I look at my parents, I don’t think they have much friends, the price they had to pay for this family. With that, I think it is very important to spend quality time with family. That’s why my June holidays are very important.. december holidays are fun, the adults spend time with the adults and the kids with the kids, but there are really not much quality family time. Actually I feel rather sad too when I see families not spending quality time together.. 😦 It’s like something wasted. I guess some parents are just too selfish and care too much about their own fun and comfort that they ask friends along for trips and they can have their adult talks and enjoy themselves but it’s really not building the kids up. Oh well, if they are so selfish, then even more they should spend quality time with the kids, because if they don’t, the kids might not grow up healthy emotionally and the parents themselves will have a hard time in the future… talking about being selfish huh!

And some parents really teach their kids the wrong things, their kids become soooo materialistic! Everything becomes a business deal for the kids and I really cannot stand kids who are like that because once it becomes part of them and their belief systems since young, they start of with the wrong attitude and it will be very hard for them to go far in life because there’s no more love and selfless sacrifice. Everything must be a deal. Sigh, rather sad… And some kids become so materialistic, as I say… And one more thing I cannot stand is people who cannot control their finances well or people who are materialistic. It’s one thing to be able to afford it and splurge, but it’s another thing to not be able to afford it and covet. I think desiring is fine, but it cannot be such a great part of you or else you’ll be led astray by that desire… Personally when I look at things, I look at its value and not its brand. Okay, some brands are classic (like Chanel!) but some brands are really overrated… Some people might argue that brand is value, but pleaseeee, it depreciates.

Was talking to dad just now and he was talking about the way the rich kids spend money and have fun in life. And he asked me to avoid them, don’t even make friends with them, don’t talk about hanging out and taking them as a potential husband. Sometimes I think God is fair, like for me, I have the ability but I don’t spend a lot; as compared to some who can’t really afford the things but splurge on them. That’s why God put His resources this way. haha! But then again, maybe not. There are still those rich kids out there who spend money like crazy. I just thank God I’m not one of them. :):) Today my dad just talked about finding the right kind of guy in my life. Don’t find a rich one, he said! Hahaha!

Some things I am very serious about, some things I can compromise. Life is not perfect. I cannot control a lot of things, but I would like to control the teachings in my family now, at least for my still-growing-and-mouldable sisters and also for my family next time. That’s the least I can do.

PS: If this entry provokes you, I’m really sorry. I just feel strongly about this, hence all these came out. Seen too much and known too much already.. I think I’m becoming a mother…

FATTTT!!

Bleaghhh I feel fat! 😦 Super fatttt… Because I’ve been eating so much and haven’t really been gymning. Arghhh today Cliff came and I really couldn’t wake up.. Actually I woke up but since I didn’t sleep well at all, I had a headache and feel I shouldn’t work out or else I’ll feel worse after that…

Sigh, everyday been eating so much. Since last Sat dinner with a few friends at Tiong Bahru, then Sun lunch with Dix n e kids at Dan Ryans, then dinner at Crystal Jade with Daryl n LK; Tue steamboat buffet before Zhenyi leaves, Thu night for Phine’s bdae and tonight at Esmirada’s. I think I’m going to explode like the blueberry girl in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory if I don’t start exercising. BOO!! I’m contemplating if I should start digging and puking everything out… And to Lengkian: nooo I’m really not anorexic so stop throwing food on my plate and forcing me to eat!!!!!!!

School’s been crazily busy and it’s only week 4! Arghhh I need more strength physically and mentally, and capacity and wisdom! I really need help with my schoolwork mannsss.. CAP can’t afford to drop even a little bit, or else I’ll just graduate next year with a simple bachelor’s degree… No more honours, no more masters.. 😦 Not that I can’t, just that I choose not to. No point taking it up and not doing well. But then again, I think I need direction..

Movie saga..

I realised I really watched a lot a lot of movies recently, I don’t know why! I think I watch at least one every single week! haha. So far I watched Public Enemies, GI Joe, Hangover, UP, The Proposal. And Rae wants to watch District 9, while SHY n TLK wants to watch Bruno. Haha.. but if you were to ask me, I personally like The Proposal a lot a lot! I think it’s funny and yet sweet at the same time..

Argh! Still doing my MW balance sheet for JULY! And next month I need to do August already… Jac just left, just gave me a new task – do the open position for MW every WEEK! >.< Or else I think the shareholders will all come after me.. Eeeeks, I don’t like it because I can never balance it.. Help!! :(:(

Not to mention, Amelia says that all her friends have finished Maths Tutorial 1 last week and I barely started. Yayyy!! Sighh… Need to spend more time studying and less time going out… Or else I’ll really need to discipline myself and not play… And oh yes, building up my personal tabernacle too! 🙂

Going & Gone…

It seems like it’s only yesterday that we planned a surprise farewell party, spent hours pasting crystals, camp till late at my house to prepare things for them.. They’re really gone… Flew away to a faraway place, pursuing new dreams and experiencing a new chapter of their lives. I can only wish them well 😦

School has started and thanks to the morning PM last week, I am still waking up at 645am every single day. And I feel that I’m becoming more and more stupid… From whacking my head in the middle of the night cos I thought there was a bug to sms-ing lengkian in the middle of the night subconsciously about morning PM on a saturday, to knocking my head damn hard on the cupboard since I left the cupboard door open, and getting lost again and again in school! To think that I’m already a year 3.. What’s happening to me? Oh yeah, and the most heart wrenching thing is to scratch or knock different cars of mine every single day! 😦 Boohoo… That’s why I tell Steph they shouldn’t go. Or rather the more I do these stuff the stupider I become and hence the spiral down effect.

Jac is leaving this friday as well! To nice romantic Nice for a good 4 months!! :(:( I think (know) she will have a lot a lot of fun! I wish I could go as well 😦 Should have accepted the Helsinki offer, but then again, maybe not. Haha! But with everyone gone, I also wish I can go somewhere and take a break. But for now, I’m stuck in old boring NUS. Nevermind, I shall make the best out of my situation and do really well this semester. Yayyy Study!

skul

Skul is starting next week, which means another 3 months have passed. Sometimes i wonder what I have done during the past 3 months, sometimes I think of what I have achieved, or am I simply wasting my time… These 3 months have indeed been a great break and useful time. I get to spend some quality time with family, work and learn, and have a short getaway with friends. Church has been good as well. 🙂

In this new sem, I really tell myself to be consistent since week 1 and study real hard. (I ALWAYS tell myself that every semester) But at least it’s a resolution this semester, better than not determined to study at all right? 🙂 This sem I’m taking 6 modules, something I’ve never done before, so I’m rather excited yet afraid of the busy-ness that might come. But I’m sure if I don’t rely on my own strength but Someone high above, I would be able to go through it.. well. 🙂

Ooooo~! Eggcited for skul! 🙂 But that means it’ll be soon that the year will be over… Half a year to go to fulfill new year resolutions, half a year more to make this a fruitful year. yayy! I’m a happy girl!! 🙂

Oooooo service today was fantastic!! I was just telling Soph it’s been a long time since God’s presence saturate the place that hearts melt, knees bow down and tears stream down our eyes. THe last time I can remember was probably Emerge in Jurong West.

And I’ve really been seeing Sam & Steph everyday these weeks! From Geylang frog porridge, durian to Clarke Quay Marrakesh to Orchard to Dempsey, we’ve been everywhere around Singapore, just doing our very best to make their last few days in Singapore a memorable one… And I’m really happy doing this, fostered or strengthened our friendship even further… I just hope they don’t need to go :(:(

Nikoi!!

This week was sooo tiring! Went over to Nikoi Island (www.nikoi.com) with a few friends for a few days getaway, actually to celebrate my 21st birthday 🙂

The journey there was sickening, both figuratively and literally. We were so tired since we have to take a ferry to Bintan (1hr) and travel by car inland to another jetty for another hour, before boarding a boat for another 20mins and another small boat when nearing the shore. After that I swear we were all so sea-sick. The weather was so so sooo hot we just feel like sleeping in! But the island is so pretty, the sand so fine, service so good, and water so clear. :):) But it was just wayyyy too hot!!

So first day we pretty much kayak around and just sit at the beach, swim at the pool etc. Friends were rather secretive and I was quite suspicious of them since they disappeared one by one to the beach house after dinner, with weird excuses. And they made me leave earlier to get a drink with Andy. Then after dinner they refused to let me go back. Keep saying “it’s okay la, just sit down here..” then we went for bonfire and did stupid things, watched the stars… The sky was soooo full of stars it looks like those pictures of the galaxy you see on the internet. And we saw a lot of shooting stars!!! I think the song “流星雨” was oversung during this trip. Haha! 

Then when we went back, it was really dark and the road leading to our beachhouse has light-sticks all around it.. at first I thought it was so pretty and sweet of the villagers to do it for us, but then I realised that the other houses didn’t have that.. It was just dark. Before I could think, I heard a stampede behind me and people screaming, oh not forgetting Dixon’s “AHEM”. And when I turned around, I see a whole throng of people spraying the ribbons or streamers or whatever you call it at me… My whole head was covered with it and they said I look like zombie… Haha. But seriously I was very surprised, since it’s only 11pm and I didn’t know they would do it this way. Then we all sang birthday song, blow candles, cut the cake (without knife – oh actually i didn’t cut the cake). The place was surrounded with tea lights as well, so sweet and pretty, since the candles are placed in holes dug in the sand. All thanks to Lengkian’s idea. There were also balloons, banner, tea lights, light sticks everywhere… So pretty 🙂 

That was first round. Second round is being blindfolded and hitting the pinata with a fishing rod. Lol! So scared that I would break the rod. And I really didn’t know where I was or what I was hitting or where the pinata is. They kept asking me to hit hard and I know there was someone in front of me since I saw Dixon’s flash. So I didn’t hit hard la… They made me hit pillows as well. But in the end they were very nice and guided me to the little pony. 🙂 But I still couldn’t hit it apart… Dixon tried and was not successful as well. Only when the violent polar bear hit, it was cut into half in one try… Then all the confetti came out and it was pretty too! :):)

The next round is to guess who write which message. Had to do forfeit and eat something that I don’t know what is. They let me smell Baygon! But since it was Soph feeding me and she was so angelic, I trusted her 🙂 After that was presents time… Feels a bit weird because my love language is never gift giving. I never know how to react when people give me presents.. But it’s all very nice and sweet! Like seriously I like them! Not just a cliche 🙂 After that was the video which was hilarious! Some embarrassing photos there, but then again, I won’t deny that they’re me, so I just had to laugh together with them. But it was really hilarious! Thanks to Jac, Angel and Andy :):)

And the mini poster they gave me of photos of 21 people saying 21 things they love about me, is so so sooo sweet!! I think I particularly love this one, just that I really can’t see the words on the placards for some people.. Then we pop champagne and just talked.. Was quite tired by first day… 

The next day we went swimming after breakfast and it was so so sooo tiring cos we swam quite far out in the sea and we have to swim back. The currents were very strong and it was so hard to go against it. Ohhhh my pants tore as I got out of the kayak into the sea!! It didn’t just tear, it ripped apart!! So malu.. 😦 But we just swam and kayak till we were sooo tired and have a good lunch.. I think Jac’s really strong! She really swam all the way without fins without resting and against the currents! Kudos to Jac!! :):) After that we just rested and had massage! 🙂

After dinner was another round of bonfire. This time we played games and played truth or dare… The guys did loadssss of stupid things but it was funny and very glad that they’re so sporting. Dixon was a bit weird and horny I think.. Hengyi was totally nuah-ing but he still answers things truthfully and does everything we asked him to… Lengkian was really truthful too!! But oh wells, Hengyi and Dixon kissed LK and LK n Dix cuddled! So cute of them, but so gay at the same time… :):) We had some lame games that requires us to share about some personal stuff as well, but it was fun!! 🙂

The next day we came back to Singapore and went to eat No Signboard seafood in 3 cabs with all our luggages… :):)

Thanks YUNXI for being so sweet and always there for me, so cuddly and being such a joy to be with, and we will still do our synchronised swimming!!

Thanks JAC for arranging everything no matter how irritating it seems and for all the effort put in in making this such a memorable birthday for me!

Thanks SOPH for being so so angelic and sweet, cute at the same time when you ask questions. You really really bring so much joy and love around and you really made a difference!

Thanks STEPH for still sticking with us no matter how sick you feel. Thanks for being there and fulfilling our dream of getting out of Singapore! 

Thanks SAM for being the live of the party and making mealtimes so so enjoyable! You’re really so cute and dramatic and bubbly and being my “husband” that I can laugh with, but also share with!! No more ghosts stories alright! 🙂 And for mixing the teh botols!

Thanks ANGEL for arranging everything as well. For being my bed-mate :):) who sleeps so unglamly but yet was always always there. 

Thanks SALLY for all the fun and jokes you share. You brought lotsss of laughtersss!! 🙂

Thanks ANDY for flying all the way from Jakarta to be sea-sick with us! Sorry if you didn’t have anything to do there and if you were bored. But as usual, holidaying with you is fun! But this time no extend?? 😦

Thanks HENGYI for being so sporting and helpful especially when we were at the sea. And also for letting us laugh at you for being so nuah and just letting us laugh at your expressions. You’re a natural laughter-inducing machine. 

Thanks LK for being so helpful in so many many ways. From being a coolie carrying stuff to making sure things are done, the little things that you do or care about and ask really makes a difference! 

Thanks DIX for bringing so much laughter, especially on the last night! And also a friend whom I can tease! Haha. And being such a good listener.

Everyone plays a part and as I write this, I don’t know how but somehow all the stupid things we did or laughter seems to resurface back!! :):) Most of all, I love all of you! Now, some photos!

LOVE!

21 things about me that 21 people I love love!

 

 

Stupid faces on birthday

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thanks everyone for their company and making it so so memorable for me! you’re a bunch of my most precious friends (of course there are more that didn’t go for the trip) and I really appreciate each and every one of your presence in my life 🙂 Uber sad that Steph and Sam are leaving already :(:(:(

Burfday!!

Time seems to fly, next week is my 21st.. Really can’t imagine it coming and soon it’ll be over… Only realised after family dinner of celebrating cousin’s birthday, after getting all my presents and being excited about my birthday, that I realised it’s really really really SOON! Woots~!!

Had a great cg meeting just now.. Was so disturbed by my flu and sore throat and cough and feeling so groggy I almost didn’t want to go for cg, if only I didn’t have to share testimony. But it was amazing that by deciding to go even if everything seems hard, I never felt better once I reached Riverwalk! It was really irritating, I’m having this ringing sound in my ears and blocked nose and ears, itchy throat that makes my mouth so dry, the driver was late to deliver my car and I really didn’t want to be late for cg. And I was stuck at every traffic light junction! Oh what a luck.. Was really frustrated all the way to Riverwalk, I think Yunxi heard my voice. haha.. But everything was very good once I reached Riverwalk. God is good… 🙂

Ooooo yay! Can’t wait for next week!!! :):)

OH YEAH, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNXI!! Love you a lot a lot a lot, and we’ll still be in the 10% category pst kong mentioned 🙂 not until HE takes you away from me!! :):)

Birthday!

Happy Birthday MOMMY! <3<3 Went to eat Lawry’s on Saturday night to have a simple celebration and today at Xi Yan for lunch since it’s her real day.. 🙂

Work is so so boring, I really can’t stand sitting here everyday from 9-630 doing nothing, probably just learning during the one or one-half hour session in the morning and afternoon. Other than that, I’m really rotting here. Today morning wasn’t that bad, attended a meeting and it was very interesting. But the afternoon part was totally self-reading. Not fun :(:( I need some work! Even shredding paper or photocopying or researching, everything is fine… Feel like I’m wasting my time waking up early and going to office almost 10hrs a day and only 2-3hrs being productive… Bleaghh..

Anyway these few days I’ve been really happy and satisfied with myself and what I’ve accomplished. 🙂 Heehee.

Saturday was fun.. In the morning was Johanna’s wedding, oh what a teary event! Haha. Was very impressed by how focused on God their love relationship is. So the matrimony’s atmosphere was really full of the presence of Holy Spirit. Really amazing. Everything so simple but so sacred… Then we had cg! It was good as well… Then had good fellowship..  Steph say she wants to get married at Bvlgari Hotel in Bali.. USD700 x 150ppl = USD105,000. Wooo~! Only Steph’ll do it.. Haha. I’ll just fly to Vegas of Venice and get married.

My mom’s going crazy, spending too much time with her gila friends.. Keep wanting to matchmake Jac and I away… Must be moved by the wedding! Her group of friends and her finding nice Indonesian guys with good family background for us.. These few days things are quite funny cos she’ll randomly mention things like that, and Jac and I would roll our eyes…

Next thing on my mind… Can’t wait for next week! *silly grinzzz* Ohhh what should I share on Saturday????